Stand with arms wide and heart abandoned

Saturday, November 15, 2008

i walked down the street one day only to find
a piece of love that had been left behind.
i bent over to take a closer look
but the wind blew it away to a nearby brook

i chased it tirelessly with no peace of mind
fearing that it might end up somewhere other than mine.
i saw a man give me a crooked smile
it lingered in my mind for a while

the smile said to me you dont know what you are getting yourself into
it said ive been there before too
love is just an illusion of hope
it is nothing more than a goal-less roam

i said to myself this cant be true
that piece of love seemed nothing but good
i kept running with one goal in mind
that that piece of love would be mine

bring on the desire
love where is your fire?

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Thursday, August 14, 2008

there is a tree planted by streams of water
the tree works hard to try to keep the wet soil from eroding away
he blames the stream for his tiredness and all
only to realise,
the stream gives him strength to keep everything together.

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Saturday, May 31, 2008

in moments like these
im on my knees
and i pray you hear me

beacause i need your hand
to help me stand
i need to know you're with me

show me your plans for me
there is no other path for me
i want to walk in your path only

how may i serve you
where are you calling
im lost without you

search my heart and reveal
motivations that are not of you.
i want to purge myself

with the guidance of your spirit
that lives within me
i'll be a man after your heart.
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im selfish im wrong
this is not where i belong
im not meant to be like this
faking some kind of bliss

pray for me that i will be
a selfless person who is free
to give to love to sacrifice
to live like one who is ready to die

to give before im given
to seek before im sought
to reached before im prompted

selfish la me. really selfish.

hello. please help me.

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Saturday, May 17, 2008

courage is something strange.

i find that i am a person with little courage.

i want true strength that comes from within. not just some front. or not just in things that are simple. but to be strong and courageous.

to take a step of faith.
to do something insane.
to give my money away.
to love someone who may hate me back.
to say things that need to be said.
to rebuke in love.
to stand up for the weak.
to stand among the strong.

its so hard to be courageous when you have protocol to follow. guidelines to living so they say.
i've yet to know someone courageous to be honest.

perhaps i need to be more decisive.

yeah. i suck at that.

im a braveheart.

Labels: braveheart

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Tuesday, April 08, 2008

they say that in the army, you meet all kinds of people. nerds, dropouts, nerdy dropouts, sissys, chauvanists, clubbers and country clubbers, PSPs and chinese chesses, gangleaders and church leaders and buddhist devotees and...

they say that in the army, you learn to be a yes man. "do this""yes sir" do that" yessir" drop20 "yasser arrafat" (spelling?)

they say that in the army, you find out more about who you are. a leader, a bum, a sacrificial giver, a..........

they say that in the army, you learn the sacredness of sleep and time and family and friends and girlfriends and...........

but who cares what they say?

in the army, what do i want?

what does God want?

impact lives positively.

but okay here are some promises i would like to make to the world around me.

1. i will not cover my head in shame or that kind of thing.

2. i will not change who i am or the way i speak

3. i will not keep talking about army (this one is especially for the girls)

4. i will give excellence in everything that i do. in or out of army. and not be selfish with my time.

5. i will strive to keep my friends and treasure my family and spend time with them.

6. i will _________________________________

i think i will have more to add once i go in

see you all in 2 weeks and in my new crown of glory.

and keith/don/wiccan. i hope we will meet soon. may my God bless you and yours too.

MING

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Thursday, April 03, 2008

maybe the music of the world can be turned around to be used to worship God. not all, but i mean some could. maybe not just worship, but also used as prayers to him. i dunno. lets see..

wake me up inside

call my name and save me from the dark

save me from the nothing ive become

bring me to life

bring me to life - evanescence

cuz i want it now,

i want it now

give me your heart and your soul

hysteria - muse

love is the answer at least to most of the questions in my heart

i'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together

better together - jack johnson

i tried so hard

i got so far

in the end it doesnt even matter

in the end - linkin park

where do we come from

why are we here

where do we go when we die?

will i be all right, because i believe

that after we're gone

the spirit carries on

the spirit carries on - dream theatre

so save me

i dont know myself

and ive been on this side alone

what's beyond it?

save me - alter brigde

somebody save me

let your warm hands break right through me

somebody save me

i dont care how you do it

somebody save me - remy zero

if i could find you now things would get better

ocean avenue - yellow card

tidal waves they rip right through me

tears from eyes worn cold and sad

pick me up now i need you so bad

down - blink 182

and now you've become a part of me

you'll always be right here

figure .09 - linkin park.

come up to meet you

tell you im sorry

you dont know how lovely you are

i had to find you

tell you i need you

tell you i set you apart

the scientist - coldplay

lights will guide you home

and ignite your bones

and i will try to fix you

fix you- coldplay

because maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me

and after all you're my wonderwall

wonderwall - oasis

The miles are getting longer, it seems,

The closer I get to you.

I've not always been the best man or friend for you.

But your love, remains true.

And I don't know why.

You always seem to give me another try.

home - daughtry

i think i made my point. thought its true that many of the songs would be

taken out of context but i guess the real main point is that

music belongs to the Lord.

secular music is fine. i dont condemn it or anyone who listens to it. duh. i myself listen.

but my point is that music should go back to God. perhaps its possible to turn

the spiritual realm around by declaring songs that were once used to express anger

and hate in the context of desperation to God. eg. (see figure .09 - linkin park)

i dont know if im making sense. but it seems to make sense to me

music was created by God, for God. and the best music on earth should be music that

sends praises up to the heavens. i really hope one day that christian music / jesus music

will musically, be the best in the world.

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Thursday, March 20, 2008

yesterday was a good day.

the who: yi hui charlene joey dale abel aaron myself.

car was unable to join us due to unforeseen circumstances and vern too.

first thing we did was had makan at at an indian kitchen and played zhng-ed bridge.
but that was just a warm warm up for what was to come.

ice skating!

falling, being silly, falling, trying to turn gracefully, falling, trying to skate backwards.

i couldnt skate backwards no matter what. dale could do it in the cross stepping way, but it wasnt really true reverse gear as cool as it still looked. yi hui could do it! haha. damn good la she.

but okay, apart from more falling and tango-ing on the ice and challenging who could put their hands on the ice for longer, ice skating was just ice skating but it was really enjoyable. im gonna go back soon i hope. learn to dance or something (:

den we went to makan again. and yh had to go get her retainers. so okay lor. go. hopefully she could join us later at sentosa!

but she didnt make it. stupid dentist/patient. take so long haha. really sad that she couldnt come back cuz this whole thing was initially initiated by her as a kind of like last time we go out before go america/army thing. but oh well.

so the rest of us headed for fun in the evening sun at sentosa.

shall skip the first part at sentosa (*wink* charlene)

but we all played volley ball, den dip, den some friz passing, den dip, den soccer, den dip, den exfoiliating( i have smooth legs baby, who want to touch? okok. no. besides you. hmm you ah.. okay la, touch la. you are.. omg please touch me. haha. OH YOU? siao. you gay ah. ok la. touch la. EH STOP TOUCHING ME LIKE THAT.)

den taking photo with the sunset. really nice stuff. good job on the camera charlene.

and the rest of the night was just chill and really tired.

one last thing. JOEY IS COMING TO PHUKET. i cant believe it! so last minute also can.

power la.

ming enjoyed himself yesterday alot.

but something in my heart
is burning like a fire
its the fire of my desire.

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