the call to missions. its tricky yet so simple.
how do i feel?
well, i do love the nations. i do wish to continue work in whatever country. but its like.. calling? thats a whole different story mann. its like giving up whatever life you have to only serve the people. thats major man. and unless God has seriously called you, your work is in vain man. today, i cried out to God. the burden within me was huge. the heaviness, the weight of the nations seemed to rest upon me. MY GENERATION! MY RESPONSIBILITY! i agree with that. i prayed hard. i daresay, i never prayed for other nations this way before. and still, i dont feel the breakthrough.. its as though MORE prayer. more INTENSIVE prayer. more intensive and PASSIONATE prayer. more intensive, passionate prayer with DEAPERATION. you get the point la.
call to missions? is desperation considered. to me, no. is passion for ppl considered? to me, no. until i have had confirmation from God. only then will i say i am called. i will not like "put words in God's mouth" then, if i fail, say its "God's will".. you know what i mean? like.. i wanna do things even the small things.. only with the confirmation of the HS.
i wanna be called! send me, i WILL go. but only if you send me, and send your spirit with me to guide me and to support me and to work through me.
here i am Lord.
for there is no higher calling
than to kneel here
before your throne and say
"i am your servant"
i know i can!
after all, you would be with me!
is there anything the
creator of the universe can't do?
yes yes, apart from not loving me and the people
and apart from sinning.
GoD!!! i dont want to joke with you anymore!
i am serious about this.
i will go where you send me
take me! and i will be yours and you will be mine.
my life is here.
use it as you please.
but i am begging you.
please.call me to the field.
its what i desire..
amen.
also, God, do not let this fire burn out. let it burn
Brighter! your love as the fuel for my soul. the power for love.
the ultimate.
[ming]eXtreme
here i am. send ME!