Friday, January 20, 2006

all i want
is to see your face
all i need
is a moment of grace
its in you
that i have the faith
to stand up and be strong

cuz i know
i'm no longer bound
its in you
that i have found
peace of mind
freedom from my sin
and the power
to love and forgive..

i want to walk with you
everyday of my life
to talk with you
in the good and the strife
you're my friend
your my father
for all time
NOTHING can keep us apart
you're the lover of my heart.
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that is the song for me today. i had great fun with my og today at the barbecue. did not eat much but its ok. it was the fun and the friends. i am so tired.

when i am tired, i think alot. and now, i am in a very thoughtful mode. bear with me...

God promised life and life abundantly. to the fullest. the most fufilling. the most purposeful, when we live IN him and his word. its not easy. no one said it would be. anyone that did either is not living it right or is lying.

all i want is to live a life which God deserves. where God will look down at me and smile. its easy to talk here. but in the real world, its a battle. a constant struggle against sin. i know what's right and whats not.. mostly. its the grey areas that are scary. but i think, my life has not been too unpleasing. not boasting here.. the battle has been won! we are just claiming it. fighting against the decpetion of the evil one which says that the battle is ongoing.

some say its easy for me since my dad is "you know who" and things like that. well, all i can say is that i am so grateful for my parents. they have guided me well bringing me up in the way they want me to be; the way God would want me. but i want to think that now, i am living on my own convictions. my own values. no doubt, i am still learning from my parents, but i think that i am old enough to think through things myself.

well, moving on... i wanna declare once again, my stand on bgr. true love waits. it does.. and now, i just wanna commit fully to the work of God. not "wasting" time on relationships that probably end up failing and in heart break. i have learnt. thank YOU (if you are reading this). through it, i learnt so much.. growed so much..

i wanna save myself as far as possible for the one true love that God has already prepared for me. call me weird, call me holy. its fine... cuz i am here; in a covenant with my beloved God. its not gonna be easy, now with girls like everywhere... (good looking ones too!) but i will stand firm and not be moved. till the time is right, i shall wait. for now, i just wanna make friends with as many people as possible( girls & guys) .

ahhhh that felt good.

to all acsi,4.5,2005. i just wanna say that i seriously miss you ALL! really i do. it will never be the same.. never.. God bless you ALL so much i pray..

to the VIKINGS! you guys totally rock.. made my stay in vj thus far... fun, interesting blah..

to 06s55, you guys rock too.

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