Stand with arms wide and heart abandoned

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

a penny for your thoughts
an hour for that one moment lost
eternity is a moment
life a moment of torment.

i need you more than i never would
its funny how i never act like i should
im dangling on a thread so thin
for me you hung on nails that pierced your skin

my heart implodes
my heart explodes
its dry
dry as gun powder.

any moment now i swear i would go tick, boom.
i swear.
you always just turn back the timer
take it away.

i need to break free and dance in your love.
its not been easy doing that honestly
not when i dont feel you

but your love, has taught me how to kneel

i dont need your hovering around me like some kind of thing
its gotta come to the inside.

through the door walked a man,
bigger thank life, and twice as ugly
if only he'd known the truth about death

every tick of the clock is a tick closer to home

every sick little girl is too close to home

you never meant it to be this way

each flower should live it's every day

the flowers need to get your light

unveil the glory and shed your light

how about this, i trade one hour a day for what seems like one moment to me.

i dont mind just being with you INTENSELY for the amount of time that an electron stays in its excited state and trade maybe..

my everything

i just need to find the real.

find the peace

find the love

find the fear

unmask insecurities

open blind eyes

im always feeling like this.

dont i ever learn

time to kneel

ok.. how about this. I LOVE YOU.

how about that. have you ever considered that?

i mean, just as a man sometimes is unfaithful to his wife, ive been unfaithful to you

but it doesnt mean i dont love you.

for your own sake! i hope you believe me!

ok. how about this.. I Love You.

or at least you really make me feel like i do.

damn man. why's it have to be so damn complicated all the time

just really wanting to keep it real, honest.

but WHAM! something hits me on the back of my complicated head.

ok. so check this out.

im slaving my ass off now.

trying to make the good life

trying to make sure of my future

trying to make sure the DESTINY is not affected by laziness

but oh. you just walk away, and i just mug away not KNOWING FOR SURE what it is that im working for.

exams are coming.

shit man. freaking scared. hopefully wont be scarRed.

need to trust. need to rely. need to not lean on my own understanding.

thats what im thinking.

but NO.

i should be trusting, relying, and leaning on a higher understanding.

im rattling everything thats on my mind.

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