Saturday, March 15, 2008

HAPPINESS!!! (:(:(:
why do i say that.

because i find myself increasingly unable to be happy and relaxed and candid and just in a state of the world dont get to me.

you know, the joy of the Lord must be upon me and no matter what may come my way, i'll still rejoice and again i say rejoice!

but it's quite tough when you got alot to think about and alot on your mind and alot to consider and alot to meditate on, did i say alot to think about yet?

ok so you see, there is alot of depressing stuff that can cause you to be depressed, and alot of worries that can cause you to worry.

but let happiness make you happy.

not convinced?

neither am i.

but i try you know? i try to be joyous and joyful and rejoyce. (i know la. spelling...) but it kinda comes to a point where you know its just some plaster mask that you put ontop of your plastic face that is really covering your plastic smile and and that is really only truth when you turn the smile upside down.

but alas. i was just msn-ing cheyl the other day. it was really just out of the blue. but perhaps God had a part in this.

she said she was high.
i asked why?
she said there was no reason
i said haha.

den i tried again and said
what's getting you high today?
she said she just is.
and that she did it to herself.

so i said. "self induced?"
she said yeah!
i asked, how?
she said, just laugh at everything

i was like woot?
thats retarded
she said HAHA

but we talked nonsense
and she HAHAHAHA-ed at everything
i was like, this cant be real.

i said i was a little down
she said. aww(or something like that)

then she said. really ah?
i said these things can bluff also ah?

so i kinda decided okay i'll try
i'll try to be high
i did a ha ha ha once in awhile
i was home alone.

didnt work

but somehow, i felt a little happier.

so i guess, it might have worked.

so hey!

dont mock those people who plastic smile. it just might work for sad sad you.

take your mind off
dont feel down
cast all your cares
life is to short to not enjoy it.

each of the above go out to someone. they know who they are.

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